Recently I have been having problems keeping Satan out of my thoughts. He keeps sticking his voice in my head at odd times throughout the day. I will be fine and then all of a sudden I feel resentment or anger over the smallest of things. I know how to solve this problem. I need to read God's Word more. Just when I decide that I am going to do just that, I hear this thought in my head. "I don't have time to read the Bible. I have laundry to fold, dishes to do, kids to shuttle, groceries to buy. Not only that I have to go to work."
Do you ever have these thought? That God can wait for us to have time for Him. We all know that He will Why do we think He deserves the least we can give Him? Why do we think He deserves less than our very best?
I tend to let life interfere with my relationship with Him. I get involved in my daily life and put Him to the side. My Bible will stay in my bag for days. Then I pull it out and read for a few days, then it goes back in the bag and life goes on. Then Satan tries to take over again. The bad thoughts come back, the resentment, the anger, the frustration with my life. Satan looks for any small crack in our Faith to sneak in and try to take over our lives and ruin us. It doesn't take a very large crack. Just the smallest of darkenss and Satan will enter.
Why do I let it happen? Why do I forget who gave me everything I have? Why do I forget God needs me? Why do I forget I NEED HIM? I have been unbelievably blessed in my life. I have a husband who loves the Lord. I have three beautiful children and three fabulous foster children. They bring me joy (and I admit frustration) on a daily basis. I have a wonderful house to live in that keeps me warm and sheltered. I have food to put on the table. I have good health. My children aren't sick. I am blessed to have a job that I love and friends that are so good to me. So why do I not thank Him daily for these blessings? Why do I let Him fall aside to live my life?
I would not even have life if it weren't for Jesus Christ. He came here to save me, and you, from our sins so that I, and you, may have eternal life. He suffered so that I did not have to. Yet I make the choice to suffer. I make the choice to let the anger and frustration enter my life. The show that anger to my children when I get upset with them and yell. I let that frustration show to my husband when we have problems communicating with each other. Instead of sitting down and looking to Him, the Most High, for my answers, I let Satan enter. Satan tells me my kids are just brats that don't listen. He tells me my husband doesn't understand me at all. He tells me there isn't enough time in the day to read the Bible. I make the choice to let Satan in and keep God out.
So today I will make the commitment to go back to the Lord. I make the commitment to read the Bible everyday. I make the choice to do everything I can to keep Satan out. I am sure tomorrow I will try to let things interrupt again. I pray my determination stays with me tomorrow. I will pray for that everyday.
My prayer for today is this: "Lord, help me to focus on You and all that you have blessed me with. Remind me that without your grace, I would have nothing, be nothing. Help me to find joy in You and Your Word. Help me to keep Satan out of my life. Lord, I pray that everyday I thank You for my children, husband, friends most of all. For they are here to help me on my path to you. Lord, thank you for the struggles you have given me. They only make me stronger if I let them. Lord, help me today to display the life you have given me to someone who needs You. Let me show them that they too can have peace and happiness if they just remember to keep You in their lives and keep Satan out. All these things I pray in your Son's holy name. Amen"
